For the longest time I took rest for granted. When I was single and teaching, my weekends were spent cleaning, running errands, hanging with friends, and sleeping until noon. I took for granted that resting would always be available.
Today, I’m lucky if I get to sleep until 8:30am. My daughter, God love her, is a morning bird and social butterfly just like her Grandmother. They both get up, cheerful and happy to start the day…early. I, on the other hand, am normally a night owl. I get my second wind around 5ish, and if it wasn’t for family needs and expectations, I would work late into the night trying to get as much done as I could.
This makes me ever so thankful for times where I find rest, quiet, and introspection.
I recently took one of those personality quizzes, like the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator. It had been a while and I wanted to see if anything had changed over the years since I had previously taken one. Pretty much it was what I expected. I am specifically an INFJ…Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Judging.
For me the biggest part of these results being accurate is that I am reflective and need rest in order to keep or regain my balance and equilibrium in a world that is loud, constantly moving, and always pushing. I actually crave quiet nights at home, long for simple days with not much on my to do list, and search out moments where I don’t have to interact with too many others at one time. I simply enjoy being still. I believe this is why I love reading so much. I can participate with the story and characters without there being any real interaction.
Now, this doesn’t mean I don’t enjoy my relationships or that I can’t be social nor does it mean I don’t enjoy a good party or that going out with my husband bothers me. Quite the opposite. I love throwing a good birthday party or social event. I enjoy date nights with my hubby. I appreciate lunch with a friend mid-week. However, what it does mean is that after 2-3 days of constant interaction, discussion, and participation, I have a tendency to withdraw and reflect, to not go out anywhere, to just be home, and to find the quiet.
In Matthew 11:28, Jesus said, “Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.” I find that particular scripture to be a comfort when I feel at odds with my to do list, our calendar, my sweet child’s active nature, or my friends’ choices to be out and about whenever time allows.
Even as I launched this company that I truly believe in and desire to see grow, I am especially thankful that I get to be home with my daughter. I love our mornings together. I enjoy being able to hear her imagination at work as she plays. I relish the quiet of naps, and the fact that God has blessed us so I can be a mom and an entrepreneur.
As the years have passed, I find that I no longer take it for granted. I find each day that I am giving thanks for the way God created me to desire rest and quiet in Him, and for the moments I have to do just that.